Old Age Is Coming For You

Today .... today I feel old.

Today I look old.

Almost two weeks ago, the morning Mr. Marine arrived for his visit, I woke up feeling pretty, thin, and if not young, at least not old. Today could not have been more different. From before I even got out of bed I felt ugly and out of shape. When I dragged myself into the bathroom, the mirror reflected a face back at me 10 years older than my own. I saw the jowls of mid-age, the sour expression of a woman who has not enjoyed life.

Today I saw the ugliness within.